Writer's Sentiments

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Honestly, I do not know what I am going to write about. I have no concrete idea to concentrate on what this post is all about. This is my third post in this site, yet I still feel like I’m writing my first one.

This should have been my first post, I guess.

Third post. This is the farthest I have reached so far in the blogosphere. I have been a writer since my elementary days. I join essay-writing contests, journalistic competitions, etc. I won a few (I was champion Photojournalist on Private Schools Competition in Cavite Region), yet every time I hold a pen and stare on a blank canvass, I always run out of words. I feel so stupid every time the deadline comes and I still have nothing to pass.

It makes me wonder, “Am I really destined to be a writer, or am I just pretending to be one.”

I know my mind creates lots of brilliant ideas, but the timing for those ideas to pop-up isn’t just right. Ideas would arise in unexpected places or situations, e.g. bathroom, jeepney and bus rides, etc. The bad thing is, when I reach for a paper and pen, those ideas instantly vanish.

Another thing that makes me doubt my self is that most of the time I look out for inspiration from other writer’s work. No originality, as you can say it. I copy the format, relate it to my personal experiences, and then write.

If someone would ask me why I didn’t started blogging before, I would answer, “I did. A couple of times already. But I stopped after a single post.” Why? Because I feel that I wouldn’t make sense at all, or because I don’t have the right to talk or write something; that people will make fun of me; that no one will read nor care even to glance at my work. That I still don’t have a place in this world.

Third post. The farthest I have reached. I hope it will not be the end of my blogging career.

I have entered this world once again. I have mustered all my courage to write something, hoping that it could somehow touch lives and inspire others to write.

Third post. Hope there will be a fourth.